Making the best of it

Honestly, I used to assume that people who struggled with reading whilst at university or at other stages of education just read slower than me. My problems had been finding the motivation more than anything. However, now I’m doing my Masters and things have picked up. I’m ridiculously busy, and stressed, and it feels like it’s never going to end and oh wow I suddenly am actually experiencing higher education. My undergraduate degree was on the “easy” side in terms of the amount of workload and this change has been genuinely very difficult for me. I’m glad that it happened later in my time in academia though as it allowed me to return back to my love of reading (after my end of high-school [6th form for you UK peeps] took it away from me) and get an understanding of what works for me, meaning that I can still get through books!

I am struggling though, there is so much to do since 2019 started and I was behind anyways because of a heart operation I had on the 7th January meaning THREE assignments were delayed for me, but obviously the other ones are still due at the same time and I feel like I’m not going to get any form of relaxation time until I graduate. I even had to do work in the week my boyfriends was here!! Unacceptable! Okay, I’m aware it’s common but it was also annoying cause I literally handed in an assignment 2 hours before his train got into my city.

This extra workload is also having a negative impact on my mental health, and I feel similar to how I did when I was doing my A Levels (16-18 exam period in the UK), which was possibly the worst time in my life for my mental health. So obviously alarm bells are ringing, but there’s nothing much I can do about it, I’ve gotten halfway through the year and I’m gunna finish. But it also means I don’t always want to read, that’s why I had a reading slump at this age and it just generally makes it all that little bit harder.

By this time last year, I had read FORTY-SIX BOOKS…. 46?!?!?!?! (I did NOT know this and just went and counted through my Goodreads to check it out). So far this year, I’ve read 20 books, which is less than half – 43.48% to be precise. But honestly, I’m still happy with this. I’m on track for my goal of 50 books for the year and I expect to pass it around halfway through the year. I did just make it quite low so I didn’t feel extra pressure on top of my masters, but either way.

This was quite a long ramble, but essentially, my reading is suffering and I’m gunna have to learn to deal with it. Thanks for reading my rambly thoughts!

2 thoughts on “Making the best of it”

  1. Hi “Autumn”, don’t despair. There will be times when you hardly read anything but the love of reading won’t leave you. Also, maybe counting pages instead of books is a good idea! I read about 80 books a year but I’m no longer studying (or working) and some are very easy ones (Kerry Greenwood for example). Keep up the blog, you’re giving me new authors. Sam

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    1. Thanks, I seem to be reading a little more now that my masters has lessened in intensity so I’m making the most of it while I can! (ie this fortnight sadly haha)


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